1. |
One Step Behind
04:14
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One Step Behind
Standing on the porch you pulled out a pack
Said I don't do this too often
Rain falling on the rooftops
We played our songs in the study cave
As the hours came and passed away
Sipped dark tea and talked of God
Told me stories about Mexico
And all the women you've had come and go
They all ended up being crazy
But you know I like your advice
You always help me reanalyze
All of my naive assumptions
Funny how our lives divide
I've always been one step behind
Well, now I see that it all makes sense
We're going opposite directions
Going back to school and working overtime
You've been saving up for another life
It's the way things go it's the next step forward
But I bought into that artist dream
That if you tell the truth, then it sets you free
To be shut out of the city
Funny how lives coincide
I've always been one thought behind
Well, now I see that it all makes sense
There are no other options
Now I see that it all makes sense
You had no other options
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2. |
Literature Bums
03:57
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Born on a hiking trail
New Year's Eve in the city jail
They're gonna run these boys out on a rail
If we don't put down our pens
Cause you know we've got a lot to say
The absurdity of here today
Brothers now until the grave
Cross town city sons
These Literature bums
Past the pantheon of the city lights
Raven Greyhounds passing by
With the characters still in our minds
Or maybe they're just us
From the Bible to the pool house bar
The casino, trampled gold stars
Taught us to see eye to eye
And stick to our guns
These Literature bums
So if you start feeling out of place
Well, that's where we belong
Getting through another day
To write another page or song
Get out those art museum blues
Those dishwash, busboy, coffee shop moods
There's nothing new under the sun
Except these Literature bums
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3. |
Fortified
03:20
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Fortified
Closing another road
Let down and it feels like home
But i’ve been so much better than before
Now that I don’t need you around anymore
See the Tin Man in my child eyes
Looking older from saying goodbye
But somehow I found it, bottom dresser drawer
The secret to not feeling bad anymore
And when you leave
That’s fine with me
I’m fortified
I'm lost at sea
You tried me on for size
But I didn’t quite fit you right
Talking and laughing, lying across the floor
Sorry, I don’t need to know you anymore
Goodbye, I don't feel anything anymore
But when you leave
Don’t look at me
I’m fortified
I'm lost at sea
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4. |
Art Museum
04:28
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Art Museum
You walk alone at the art museum
With a camera hanging from your neck
For the paintings hanging on the walls
By those whose fame came after death
No one saw the genius at the time
In the wild strokes and troubled mind
Empty pockets and lonely life
To bring us all we hold inside
A ship was sinking in the sea
Of cobalt blue and forest green
You took a picture of the scene
No longer trust real memories
Because they all become blurs
Till you can't remember
Like that park bench of the past
You drew a poem on my hand
Now all the ink has bled away
And no message still remains
As you search for someone new
To kill your time with you
You broke down at a traffic light
By the city limit one flash flood night
The signals changed from green to red
Neon Jackson Pollock on wet cement
Sometimes you realize where you are
Feel the tangible beating of your heart
As it clicks like a clock in your chest
Speeds up slows down but never rests
And tells us everything that's wrong
Creates a vacuum where love belongs
But it isn't only that this time
But watching the universe unwind
And your dark hair is hanging down
Cause you lay so low in your college town
With your apartment and your new friends
And your new job it's a dead end
Cause you can't envision a life to lead
Or something you could see yourself doing
For the rest of your time
Ain't it great to be alive
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5. |
Keep It Positive
04:05
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Keep It Positive
My friend Dorothy went to school with me
And we both got our degrees
After all the hassle we tossed our tassel
Dunce caps off into the sea
I was living still at my parents house
My mind filled with arrogant doubt
I'm gonna be famous I just don't know how
That's when Dorothy went off and killed herself
And I wandered hallways
Calling out her name
And nothing felt the same
But hey that's yesterday
Hey hey hey
Gotta keep it positive
And always stay
Dosing antidepressants
Cause they level out the scales
And put wind in your sails
And her family always blamed it on me
Said I put it in her head
But I'm haunted by her ghost when she wants me
She said it was really them
Cause they pushed her hard towards a career
But they all had disappeared
I said let me get one thing clear
You should have been the one to steer
Cause it was really your life
The whole awful time
Now the sun’s gone down on mine
Ever since you died
But I I I
Learned to keep it positive
That’s why I lie
To myself and say I want to live
Defendant out on bail
Cause it puts wind in my sails
But I'm a ship lost at sea
Ever since you abandoned me
And you're probably crying in hell
Or glad to finally be by yourself
But I can't know
So I won't try
Just wish you were
Still alive
Hey hey hey
Gotta keep it positive
And always stay
Dosing antidepressants
Cause they level out the scales
And put wind in your sails
But I I I
Learned to keep it positive
That’s why I lie
To myself and say I want to live
Defendant out on bail
Cause You put wind in my sails
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6. |
Susanna
03:31
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Susanna
Susanna ran around like Mary
She goes round downtown
Her young tongue's been in so many
Mouths by now
And she disappears
Never stays
It’s been so many years
Running in place
Constance fills his head with
Constant noise
Always tries to impress
All the boys
And he keeps up with
All the latest trends
And he meets up with
All Susanna’s friends
Debby took a bottle of sleeping pills
Laughed on her bedroom floor
Making snow angels
Constance and Susanna made out at her funeral
Then they never spoke again
And everything was cool
And I push away
The entire world
Cause I’m tired of suicides
And if the shoe fits girls
And she disappears
Never stays
It’s been so many years
Running in place
Keeping up with
The latest trends
And meeting up with
Susanna’s friends
Debby took a bottle of sleeping pills
Laughed on her bedroom floor
Making snow angels
With me
Snow angels with me
Snow angels with me
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7. |
Sand and the Cold Waves
04:49
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Sand and the Cold Waves
I drive through the city and try to remember the good days
Sand and the cold waves
Wet towels and tide caves
If things don't change I don't know how long that I have left
Where I will go next
I don't see an end
Clothes on the carpet like victims of bombings
They lay there
Like the tangles in her hair
As she slept through the day
Thoughts are what kill you the words I'm repeating in my head
Pain stops when you’re dead
I have nothing left
To give
Words of a wash out tossing and turning in my bed
My brothers say forget
It is finished
But the house is so empty when everyone else has gone to work
I pace through the hallway
I stare through old portraits
And my dad said to tell him if anything ever got this bad
Driving to the service
Where we laid Thomas to rest
But I keep my mouth shut and try to get through it on my own
Closing doors and windows
Staying out of view
Asleep in my room
And it comes out in my jokes the words I pretend that I don't mean
But my friends are laughing
They must feel the same
And one confides in me and says she’s not sleeping
Every night she stays up
And cries till the sun’s up
She says she feels ugly and can't stand the look of her body
The cage that she's trapped in
When the truth is opposite
But I know there's nothing I can say to make her see different
It's too strong a current
The decision is hers to make
Thoughts are what kill you the words I'm repeating in my head
Pain stops when you’re dead
I've have nothing left
But I keep my mouth shut and try to get through it on my own
Closing doors and windows
Staying out of view
Asleep in my room
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8. |
Colossus
04:37
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Colossus
You keep yourself away now
Like I used to keep myself
Hiding in your room don’t want to know the light of day
All the pressure mounts and cumulates with things to say
But no they won’t come out cause all you do is doubt your place
And no one really knows
How to approach
The apparition in your stare
But when you walk outside
By yourself at night
You see the solution in the air
But don’t go through with it
Don’t go through with it
You give yourself a hard time
I told myself the same lines
Pace the kitchen floors and close the open doors and wait
Wearing the same clothes spending too much time alone to change
Up and down the hall watch the patterns on the wall rearrange
And I want to meet you
But every time I do there’s some colossus in between
Through crowded small talk rooms
The smoke and sad perfume
I try to reach you as you leave
Maybe some other time
Maybe some other time
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9. |
Nero
06:00
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Nero
I thought there were questions that no one was asking and I wanted to shine moonlight on
But then I found there were answers that no one could live up to and I felt like the old Pantheon
All my deities vanished into rabbit trails of myths and visitor hours assigned
Through the Oculus moon shining on the empty gutted centers of my insides
I had felt so prestigious as kings came to worship but now my religion is dead
And the screams of the animals silenced by sacred knives no longer bleed penitence
Nothing is worthless, no it's more like presents, wrap it up with ribbons and tape
It's the thought that counts not the size or amount, in keeping those banshees at bay
Like the seasides you've walked with your hands in each others trying not to let the pleasure escape
But it longs to be killed like the fly in the sill or the mountaintop God of your faith
Wait, wait for the the day
Heaven is now, plastic and fake
Signs all around saying don't go down
The offer is free and it’s redeemable now
But my brother's in hell 'cause he didn't believe
The reasons to stay are the reasons to leave
But Jesus you're true and I'm sticking with you
Though I'm caught in the brambles of a catch-22
Lost in the weeds, choked by the thorns
The same ones they pulled and your head was adorned
On the day that you died for what you believed
You said you were God and I said I was me
Your disciples went out, set Rome ablaze
Your words burned like fire as the emperor played
But now we live in circus of wild pleasure seekers and the show is about to begin
Girls look like clowns in all of their makeup with their clanging cymbals ringing thin
To get the attention of a subdued procession of lion hearted boys who've been tamed
Oh how you long to lead them with your hand on the chain to the cold comfort of their cage
We don't know what's missing because nobody tells us and we no longer think for ourselves
We just lay our head down and wearily look out through the bars of this wooden cell
Wait, wait for the the day
Heaven is now, plastic and fake
Signs all around saying don't go down
The offer is free and redeemable now
But my brother's in hell 'cause he didn't believe
The reasons to stay are the reasons to leave
But Jesus you're true and I'm sticking with you
Though I'm caught in the brambles of a catch-22
Lost in the weeds, choked by the thorns
The same ones they pulled and your head was adorned
On the day that you died for what you believed
You said you were God and I said I was me
Your disciples went out, set Rome ablaze
Your words burn like fire as the emperor plays
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10. |
Like Virginia Woolf
02:16
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Like Virginia Woolf
Her clothes are coming off
She steps into the shower
Wash down those hours letting him in
Is this all there is
Another empty fifth
The habit's getting expensive
He's moved on and forgotten you
She wished she was dead
Staring straight ahead
Tired of getting up and getting dressed
We're here and we're gone
Gone while we're here
Hurt most by the one’s we let near
He's moved on and forgotten you
Sleeping with somebody new
Laughing to tears driving down
Piled rocks into your coat
Pockets walking out
Into the lake they found you cold
Drowned like Virginia Woolf
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11. |
Climbing Mount Moriah
04:14
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Climbing Mount Moriah
She knew just what to say
To forever keep me away
Scars forming across the stains
Self portraits on her legs
Rulers and X-acto blades
Piñata smashed papier-mâché
I thought I loved you feelings
Passing tides crashing waves
Across the endless shore of sand
Abraham's star crossed children
We’re climbing Mount Moriah
Every soul’s alone with God
A faith I cannot explain
A doubt that plays out the same
15 with his father's gun
Blood soaking mattress dead son
The violence we all become
The laughter right before the end
Last ditch phone calls tossed out to friends
Closed casket and line for refreshments
I thought my love could save you
But nothing I said could change you
So now I have to let you go
Cause I can't carry your weight
Returning day after day
To blame me for the choice you made
A vision I cannot erase
A prisoner gone to waste
Well finally the tunnel’s ending
I can see the Light Widening
Soon we'll all be Laughing
Soon we'll all be Laughing
Soon we'll all be Laughing
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12. |
Sea of Laughter
04:48
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Sea of Laughter
It's not much but I love it how
We just sit around the house
Talking slow what comes to mind
Like a poem that grows from the first line
I’m baptized in a sea of laughter
Forgot all that I thought mattered
And collapsed to the carpet
Out of my chair
And Join in the chorus
Of lungs running out of air
Wiping the tears from our eyes
Dreamt of the ocean far below
As I tried to balance on a tightrope
A shoe slipped off and I fell
Woke up in warm blankets by myself
But the fear still stayed left over
Into the dark I stared and wondered
What it's like to know your gonna die
And the changes I should make in the meantime
Could care less by the morning light
Sat at the theater, turned off my phone
Watched with the crowd, glad to be alone
When the credits started walked to my car
Passed the dancing fountain and the plaza guard
And I tried not to think about her then
She's probably just out with a friend
And what's it to me, I'm free, a ship at sea
So what if she sails, nothing gets to me
Driving off into the night
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13. |
Looking Out
06:18
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Looking Out
Sleeping in passed the alarm
Bell ringing in my ear
Sitting on the side of the bed
Blinking my eyes clear
Already forgotten yesterday
Tomorrow seems too far away
And so does now
But i'm trying not to stay checked out
I'm trying not to stay checked out
I don't want to be checked out
I want to feel the ups and downs
Again
Son of God service Sunday
Listen to Apollos speak
If you want to throw the first stone
Then throw it at me
Wishing that the world would be made new
Hoping for the best for me and you
But it's war right now
And I'm trying to get it figured out
I want to get it figured out
I want to get it figured out
Start a whisper in the crowd
Repent
And I don't believe there's nothing left to see
I think the Son will shine instead
And wake the dead
Like the prophets said
To a glorious new day
Where Love is born again
On Earth as in Heaven
Reading, thinking, writing, talking
I'm not afraid to change my mind
I'm more afraid of being sentenced
Before I've been tried
Climbing up the mountain for a better view
Libraries and Anthills just to miss the truth
But I found some now
Just when time is running out
I feel like time is running out
I feel like time is running out
The dunces are too loud
To hear
Meeting for coffee or whisky
We both have too much to do
She says she's gonna travel forever
Just passing through
But I never want to go anywhere
I feel the same from pictures as when I am there
And I'm here right now
At the window looking out
At the window looking out
At the window looking out
Watching dark horse clouds
Come in
And I don't believe there's nothing left to see
It's just I can't seem to feel it
Staring straight ahead
Waiting for the end
So I can get up and leave
The theater and my friends
Go home and go back to bed
On Earth as in Heaven
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